"NO ONE SAID LIFE WAS FAIR"
My
grandpa, Ken Bowersox, always said “No
one said that life was fair.”
- and boy, if anyone had a reason to be frustrated with circumstances
in life, I'd say he had one. After suffering a stroke, half his body
was paralyzed for the last 12 years of his life. He had to physically
re-learn how to do everything that was a normal part of life. The
things he loved to do, such as fly fishing and hiking, were no longer
feasible. Like it or not, he was limited. Speech was a struggle
mentally and I watched him become frustrated by not being able to get
the right words out. In his lifetime he also faced prostate cancer,
liver cancer, bone cancer and lung cancer. I watched him struggle,
but I also watched him still SMILE. Despite what my grandpa had been
dealt, he always insisted on getting out of bed every morning, and
facing the day with a good attitude.
That
remained that same to the day he passed on in 2008. I've thought
often of my grandpa's example in my life. I learned more about
perseverance from that man than anyone else I've ever known.
REFINED
IN THE FIRE
Right
now I am sorta freaking out because I have stupid Crohn's Disease. I don't have a clue what I am supposed to do or how I'm
supposed to go on living like everything is completely fine. Yet I know
God is making something beautiful out of this. I know He is refining
my heart in this fire. Even though sometimes the fire gets hot and burns me, I know He is allowing it for a greater good. Maybe
I will never understand on this side of eternity what those purposes
are, but I am trusting the Lord. I am sure there were times in my grandpa's life that he felt like his life wasn't impacting
anyone. Little did he know how much of an inspiration he would be to
his youngest granddaughter, years down the road. All those years I was
observing his attitude and example. Honestly he impacted me more than
he ever knew. The point I am trying to make is that we never really know what type of lasting effect we may leave.
ONLY
ONE LIFE TO LIVE
Although
my grandpa Ken's last days on earth were painful, I rest in the
knowledge that he is with Christ. The cancer took his life away from
this earth and onto the next, but I know I will see him again
someday. Even if you choose not to believe Jesus's promises, He
is alive and His love for you is real. The truth is that His gift of forgiveness has always been and always will be free. I beg
and plead with you all...please know this life and all that it encompasses are only temporary. “For it it appointed for man to
die once and after that to face judgment.”-Hebrews 9:27 Friends,
at the end of this life the Lord will judge us on ONE thing alone:
1.Did you accept Christ's offer of life and forgiveness? Or not?
That's it. Please don't push that decision off until later, because
if I've learned anything this past year, its that there are no
guarantees in this life, not even one.
HE'S MOVING
IN THE MESS
The
past year has been a mess. I've been opened up and stitched back together multiple times. I've had my guts pulled out, cut out,
rearranged, sewn and stapled back inside of me. I've had blood transfusions
from anemia and hospitalizations from illness. I've had
tubes, wires, medicine, blood and plasma all inserted into my veins.
I've puked until I had to have a tube shoved down
my throat, I've been disgusted, frustrated, broken and beat. After all that I was given the shattering news that I still have the same disease I'd just fought to hard to get rid of. Boooo! And
somehow there is a reason for this.... My God, the King of kings, is
alive and He is moving in the mess, I know it. Even with all the chaos, disorder
and confusion whirling around in my life right now, there is
something beautiful coming from it...
I guess what I'm trying to say is that although I would never wish my trials on anyone, these crappy circumstances are bring new songs to my lips. While recovering from my surgeries, I literally could not sing. (BTW what a punishment for a musician!) Singing involves- believe it or not- our abs. My singing voice was so small and faint, as my sore stomach muscles couldn't handle the act of expanding air! Now musical notes are coming forth from both lungs and my heart.
The Lord is giving me a new song to sing. One of suffering, perseverance, hope and faith. Speaking of
which....
THIS
SPARROW WILL SING AGAIN
The
notes she lost
in the winds that blew
in the winds that blew
First
flat, then sharp,
so out of tune
so out of tune
These
trials have been unfair,
yet
she has stayed up in the air
This
sparrow will sing again...
At
times she lost her way,
yet
she has flown on through the gray
This
sparrow will sing again
Shes
flown through fire,
Her
wings became tired
Endlessly
trying not to crash
She
clung to the sky,
Fighting
for her life
Flapping
hard against the storm
These
trials have been unfair,
yet
she has stayed up in the air
This
sparrow will sing again
The
the clouds will part someday
and
she will forget all her pain
This
sparrow will sing again...
Keep
on singing, even through the storms of life.
and the song will be one of resplendent joy and hope that will resound to the heavens !
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